Life has never been simple. Not that it ever needed to be or said it would be. Time after time each time I catch my breath I lose it again. I have always been a fighter. I can not argue that or diminish my fight but a break would be lovely. I got my footing just right was gifted a second chance and another. I am determined to make the best of it. Not an easy feat but I am attempting to make it.
As I was diagnosed with MS I looked to my love and said that is it you are stuck with me now broken and all. We had a plan now our plan has changed, "let us make it as far as we can together"
I want to be around for once. My family is growing and I am damn proud of it, I can not leave now. My health is at its all time best which might be why the diagnoses came so late. I want to stay healthy and active, I want to be around for him and our future. I also hate the cards I keep dealing to his side of the table.
Ope no kids, take that one down. Years after wanting him to commit to a giant family. After he was finally in a place to say "Yes, I do want children." My diagnoses takes it off our table. Marriage the way we dreamed is off the table not a never but just postponed.
My past does not define me but if it could stop leaving scars that would also be nice.
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