Marinela MicPlucic,
There was once a time i couldn't imagine telling my secrets to anyone but you. There was once a time when I was only happy jumping into your car listening to loud music smoking like chimneys and talking about retarded ex's. There was a time when I knew boys come and go but we we're forever. I fucked up to realize that you were my best friend no matter how many times I was stupid and went back to whats his face and you swore you'd never talk to me again if I did. But you were still always there. Yes I didn't see you everyday no I didn't talk to you everyday but when we need each other there was no question we were there for one another.
I miss you still. I have none of this. I lost one of the greatest friendships I knew and I never guessed it would be you. There's logic to my craziness and my no longer keeping close girlfriends. I already had the greatest girlfriend in the world and lost her I already know the connection we had can't be replaced because no one has the memories we do. I wasn't finished adding to them but I have no choice.
The worst part is I don't even know why it ended. Its worse then a break up where you knew all along that the end was inevitable. It was a friendship a sisterhood. Now well I go on and pretend it doesn't bother me. Instead of drunk calling ex's I wanna drunk call you and yell and scream "WHY'D YOU LEAVE ME?!?!?!?" It's worse then every break up I've ever had and you know most of them we bad. For once I didn't expect for someone to leave me with out an answer because she's a girl she should understand how hard break up's are when there's no explanation but she didn't follow protocol she dropped me like a dick with out a goodbye or an awful email or text.
I woke up one day and she was just gone. Every part of life is fulfilled but this.
